Chemoland

Chemoland is very similar to Disneyland .. you go on a ride expecting your stomach upside down and inside out, not knowing which corner hides another elevated path or a dragon behind and hope that whatever happens you don't a) throw up on the person next to you
b) enjoy the ride (at least a little bit) and c) at the end you say it was worth all that wait in the line.

Knowing my body (more like not knowing my body) I was cocky enough to think that I will do just fine, maybe 2 days feeling under the weather as many say it happens and youppieeee skipping through the treatments till the end of February ...

I open my eyes in the morning hoping that I will be fine, but already sitting up I feel my stomach tumbling, my mouth tastes like I haven't brushed for 2 months and my head spins - the chemicals react. The bathroom seems far away walking straight up and so I crouch ... shower .. no relief ... dress up .... I wear mini skirts and high heels just to get some dignity back ... with my luck I live 4 blocks from work and so I don't have to put up with the smelly crowd ... I stay for a half day, because writing a single email I feel like passing out ...

The only thing I can still do without any difficulty is sleep ... I've slept more in this single week than in months! I wish I could hibernate for a season, while going through this "Insurance Policy" as my doctor calls it and wake up like Sleeping Beauty ... Rosy cheeks, healthy, long beautiful hair included with my prince aside ... I haven't lost a single hair yet ... it happens day 14-16 after the treatment, but I decided not to watch my hair going in strands, so I will have it shaved ... next Thursday

What is strange - I am nauseous and yet I can still eat and have a huge appetite!
Once, during my high school years, longing for an extra day off school I went to the doctor's office and claimed:
" Ohhh I have a stomach ache, I threw up, my head spins, I am nauseous and could not bear to sit through the day ... "
the doctor then asked me "Have you had any breakfast?"
"Yes, bread with butter and jam, a hot chocolate and an apple ... "
and she said " Do you have an exam today? ... "

(So there, it's possible!)

I am feeling better now .. my mouth is full of various sores (a bi-product of the chemo again) and I feel like I've been eating cotton balls, but otherwise I am ok .. until Friday again ....