I envy

I envy you, who wakes up in the morning without realizing that another day has gone by because time is of no essence

I envy you, who is able to listen to the radio and TV without noticing every advertising for some drug that may work for cancer

I envy you, who looks in the mirror and can keep a stare

I envy you, who can dance and skip and run and dare

I envy you, who thinks that bad things happen to others and will not happen to you

I know the feeling, I used to have it myself (what a mistake) ...

I envy you, who goes to a restaurant and is able to look at the menu without seeing all the antibiotics in meat and a la carte MSG in Chinese tofu

I envy you, who tells me "It's going to be a OK"
(I'd love to be you)

I envy you, whose hair is blown by the wind into your face and it feels like silk

I envy you, who goes to play rather than being stuck at home watching "Project Runway"

I envy you, whose body is not messed up by chemicals. Even though you say "It's almost over" I stand alone in this battle for much much longer

I envy you, who goes to bed and sleeps without worries, whose plans and goals and dreams were not affected by some horrible disease ...

I envy you, because you don't know how this jealousy feels and think I shouldn't envy


Will you forgive me?




Because I do,
I envy you!